I am constantly stuck in this place,
in between my future and my past
and I'm not sure which one I want more.
Most of the time,
part of me just wants to throw myself into the future
and the other part wants me to hurl myself into my past

should i go black?


my fave guys looks



all pictures credit to http://lookbook.nu/#more

sometimes i wish i was a boy

I Never Told You
Colbie Caillat

I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe it, I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you

I see your blue eyes every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to, when I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
(Still, you're gone)
I can't believe it, I still want you
(And I'm lovin' you, I never should've walked away)
After all the things we've been through
(I know it's never gonna come again)
I miss everything about you, without you

But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
(Still, you're gone)
I can't believe it, I still want you
(And I'm lovin' you, I never should've walked away)
After all the things we've been through
(I know it's never gonna come again)
I miss everything about you, without you


i woke up early
body alarm clock
i fall asleep soundly before 11pm(like everyday)
trying to write the interim report
deadline on 14 may

Jason Derulo - In My Head

the music video is blocked in singapore
rarrrr

went to recce the setting up for Andrea Bocelli @ Botanical Garden (YTL) and for a meeting with the client
at 1pm plus
"recce= checking the venue, taking note of the progress , if there is any problem advice the client. "

it was like a sauna
not kidding at all
because i was wearing long sleeves and jeans there
so warm
it mus be tiring for the workers too
JIAYOU
here are some photos of the set up:D













when the meeting ends
grace have to go for a meeting in woodland
while i have to go back to the office
and guess whos driving me back ?
THE GENERAL MANAGER of picoarts
damn awkward
though there were small talks about ngee ann, ex pico stuff , yog etc
it was scary and stressful
kind of freaking out
after all i am just an intern ( and i was wearing slippers haha)
his car is so chio LOL
red and black sleek interior design
i forgot the brand but yea its very comfy with plenty of leg spaces :D

came back
do more compilation for Motherhood Exhibition 2010
filing in sending emails billing them sending invoice and methods of payment

its a busy day
busy friday :D

ever wonder how does my office building looks like ?
the photos for lift lobby
here it is
theme colours are GREEN , white and grey
nice :D

its just those night that i feel like giving up on everything
psyching myself to be positive

"I'm at that point in my life where
things are neither good nor bad.
They could be better, but they could be worse.
And I can't look at anything with a purely pessimistic
or optimistic point of view.
It's just that point in life when you just
have to move foward and hope for the best"

It was only a leaf. Just a dried up crinkly thing from the dirt. But the kindness with which the child offered it to him was so innocent and genuine that it broke Death's heart to think of what he was there to do. Until now, he had not been aware he even possessed a heart.

"Thank you," Death said quietly. He tucked the leaf inside his cloak where it promptly dissolved into nothingness.

"Where are your parents, child?" Death asked the girl, for he occasionally - when time allowed - gave the little ones a final moment with their families.

The child furrowed her brow. "Um..." was all she said, but it was enough to tell the Reaper what the girl was too young to articulate.

"Oh. Yes," Death said distractedly. "I had forgotten."

The girl blinked up at him and smiled helplessly. Then she coughed an awful rattling cough, and Death remembered that he had work to do. He put all other thoughts out of his mind, lifted his great scythe over his head...

...and found he couldn't. He just couldn't -- not like this. Perhaps I'm getting old, he thought. He sighed and knelt down beside the girl.

"Would you like to be my helper?" Death asked her.

She thought for a moment and then nodded.

"All right," said Death, rising to his feet, "but first you have to close your eyes."

This next part Death did not like so much, but the Long List was not to be altered; this he knew. When the job was done, he strapped his blade to his back again and held out a bony hand into which slipped a very tiny ghostly one.

"Do you like elephants?" Death asked his new companion as they walked. "Next we go to the circus. I'm afraid someone has had a very bad day."

"Elephant sad?"

"I expect so, Little Miss, but not much longer."

It was only for a little while, Death told himself. He would take her across the divide soon enough. But his business was the loneliest sort, and it was nice to have a friend just this once. Surely no one would fault him for that.

Death, Elsie and the circus elephant wandered in tranquility, each silent in his (and her) thoughts. There was no sound of crunching leaves as they walked, for the travelers were but spirits in the autumn night. The littlest one was displeased with something. It showed on her tiny face, which was presently scrunched up in perplexion.

"What's on your mind?" Death said to Elsie. Barcas, the elephant, made an idle whumpf with his trunk.

"Why they do that?" asked Elsie.

"Why did who do what?" Death returned. He had been thinking of the next name on his list and whether it should be saved for later. He was not certain he could be kind to this one, and little girls should not see such things. Neither, for that matter, should elephants.

Elsie huffed impatiently and pointed to the deep scars and scabs from years of shackles on Barcas' ankles. These would fade as the creature forgot them, and indeed, they were a little less severe than they had been just moments ago.

"Ah," said Death in understanding. "In answer to that I can only say that the circus men are only people, Little Miss, and people do not yet understand the feelings of others. Not all of them, anyway."

Elsie frowned. "Why he not get away?"

"He tried," was Death's answer.

They continued their journey in silence for a time until a very slow and wrinkly voice interrupted the quietude.

It said, "I think that I was very fond of peanuts once."

"Yes. I believe you were," Death replied.

Barcas whumpfed with his trunk again.

"I do not think that I can tell you how delighted I would be if I were to have a peanut now."

"I like peanuts," Elsie quietly agreed.

"Then I am happy to tell you," said Death with a smile, "that where we are going, you can have all the peanuts you wish, and you may have them forever and forever. If you like."

Barcas the elephant and Elsie the child were both very pleased, and Death was pleased for them. But in his heart--whatever and wherever his heart might be--he was also a little sad.

It was time.

from
http://skary.net/blog/death-n-elsie/

i just love dark stories sometimes
cant resist it


after watching the story
it reminds me of eminem mockingbird

its makes me feel sad
this is rap with meaning and emotions

i was wearing a shirt that makes me look pregnant
:(
hahaha

after work
while walking to board the train
i "tempted" a little girl to hold my hand
it was the most amazing touch ever
makes me happy
rejuvenated
haha
another side was her father or grandfather
and there was me
little trotter
took the escalator together and lift her up when reaching the bottom of it
i am not scared of babies !

"What kind of a ring does a vampire share with his lady love if he wants to spend eternity with her? We have a peek at the ring that Edward (Robert Pattinson) gives Bella (Kristen Stewart) in 'The Twilight Saga: Eclipse.'

The ring, described in Stephenie Meyer's bestselling books as being Victorian in style, features an oval face set with diamonds.

In the photo, you can also see the charm bracelet described in Eclipse, the novel. Bella wears the bracelet with two charms -- a crystal heart given to her by Edward, and a small wooden wolf that was a gift from Jacob (Taylor Lautner).

In the film, Bella continues her quest to evade vampire Victoria (played in 'Eclipse' by Bryce Dallas Howard), who is bent on vengeance after Edward killed her main squeeze James in the first 'Twilight.' Bella is also confronted with a choice -- does she want to spend eternity with vampire Edward, or will she choose a human life with werewolf Jacob?"


isint it pretty ?
AWWW though i know Bella would spend eternity with Edward with their little daughter
but oh well...........


was watchin the adventure of merlin which just end
young merlin is cute :D

done some compilation for motherhood exhibition 2010
waiting for more fax

519pm

http://www.dresden-26-gigapixels.com/dresden26GP
wicked :D

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse -1 July 2010
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Part 1- around november or december 2010

MUST WATCH MUST WATCH

no milo
drinking teh tarik

i would like to visit
Grand Canyon Skywalk Arizona
The World’s Highest Glass Floor Above Ground
though i would probably faint LOL


Final Fantasy XIII (PC, Xbox 360, PS3)
"This RPG themed game has long time accompany the console gamers. Latest games, Square Enix made, would be present in March 2010."
cool :D
i wish i could play tat game

off to take milo

i slept early yesterday :D
knockout at 1030 pm

in office
doing nothing haha

yesterday took a few pictures of funitures
i have pass the updating of (endless) inventory caterlogue to xinyu
i get to do the compliation for motherhood exhibition
waiting for their faxes /orderform to be return
update their facia board names
see whether there is any additional orders so i could send a bill to them
:D

do interns have to work next monday ?
this coming saturday is labour day

some of the photos when we see the tearing down of mds international in pico building
( they are moving to another office which i dont know where)



the 4dticket that
xinyu and i bought together
very first time
1 dollar big 1 dollar small

never strike 4d

hahaha
suan

its a thursday

shaytards :D

Sundogs
The phenomenon where there are 3 suns in the horizon

i was too exhausted yesterday as usual
working 9am to 6pm (plus ot) is really ageing me by the days
today i wore a brown dress with my big black cardigan from pull&bear and my black flats
the great thing about working in pico art other than experiencing the event industry is that you can wear anything you like (almost everything ,only shorts are not allowed )

thirteen day of work :D
update the inventory catalogue (AGAIN its an endless job)
did some replying of emails for a booth in asia pacific food fair
now lying back on my chair
waitin for 1130am to come so that i could get a banana if there is still one remaining
and 12noon for lunch
after lunch would be going to the warehouse to take some more photos
so most probably i will be updating the catalogue again afterwards

its my 1500 th post today!
WOOTS
*opening champagne "
how diligent am i :D

soo young is so pretty :D :D and tall.
outgoing

watched finished
gain & jo kwon
seohyun and yonghwa

i love adam couple the most :D

twelfth day of work
whole day attending course
9am to 5pm

"Both Phua Xin Yu Kaylin and me just undergo a Building Construction Supervisior Safety course today (and pass the exam ) and receive a license of validity for up to 4 years ! We are lucky that the company send us to this course. we get to learn a lot of safety procedures etc. helmet have expiring dates too!"

saw a lot of accident photos
:(
please everyone work safely
SAFETY FIRST

meet aud on the way home
and then meet yin leng
coincidentally LOL
i keep shoutin "yinleng yinleng yinleng yinleng yinleng "
we 3 walked home together :D

tired and watching tv LOL
i want watch we got married 2
gain & jo kwon :(
later
eating dinner nowwww

today is a busy day
ot till 715 pm
damn high
inventory catalogue
lunch old cucumber soup :D
did quotation
type quotation

rarrrrrrrrrrrrr

mini celebration
with ping today

though his VESPA is kind of old and not really that fancy
its okay
i can still feel the thrill :D
can kola hug him
knock his helmet with mine
i will wait for the day that he drives a car :D
and i can laze in it with a roof for shelter

thanks to ping
i get a chance to experience riding in the rain
and understand why RAIN BRINGS PAIN
rain drops to be more precise

went to harbour front
vivo
have dinner at hong kim gary restaurant




his food is kind of toooo spicy thats why hes sweating

went to walk around f21
topshop top man
pullandbear
and zara
WHERES MY PAY
rarrrrrrr
slight problem with last time company

after that ride to boon lay place
so that he could get his new iphone cover
and protector
blah blah

safely back home :D
my dad scares me :(

theres a lot of things to do tomorrow

RUIEN RUIEN
FANNWONG


HAPPY 40th MONTHS~!
(soon )

so cute!
taemin~
and minho!




gain danced with jokwon (L) (L)

LOL
they are the top for so many weeks
(L)

woke up early today

"want to sit around in a field all day and pet horses"

shanedawnson is hilarious

i am a very scary positive person
though i am very scary negative person inside
i dont know
my body and brain dont work the way my heart does
heart control lesser
so i am more affected by my positive oozing energy brain

i happened to chance upon a girl who wear full gothic clothing
i was once a "wannabe" for this style
but i change because i cant help it
i am a colourful person
i just dont know where i get so much of positiveness

every 26th of the month are kind of special in a kind of way
what if it lose its value one day
pondering
a big 40th months
i am lucky that he does remember when i forgot
one happy point

cheaper by the dozen 2
watching chanel u
brother xiang guoguo
omg
i wan someone to pamper me this much

aw !

no wonder so many people like key from shinee

missing adam couple
ga-in jo kwon
we got married will resume today on mbc!
i cant wait to watch the new eps
:(


nua-ing at home is a feeling i miss every since i start work

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29a2ldtBiOE
The Nightmare Before St. Patrick's Day
o m g
so nice
><
jack skellington

just woke up

banana

warehouses photos

warehouse xiao mei
went there 5 times
count count
i have another new phobia

inventory count
update inventory catalogue
monday have things to do

our team 33 has about 300+ over events last year
teach us to count
if need 25 % mark up
we have to calculate by
margin which is x 0.75

currently eating a banana

Lauren Conrad is still so p-r-e-t-t-y

injuries accumulated
paper cuts
bruise
cuts
swollen legs
pen ink on my shirts and pants

what a good way to start a friday
tenth day of work

its 1030 am

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9k6yX02id7E

always last minute than got things to do
need check inventory in the warehouse
measurement of wxhxd
and quantities
we will have to continue tomorrow

must send BASF Chemical their invoice tml
:D

just settle down after a long bath
830 pm
i should sleep early
should i not?

i am craving for laopo bing
so nineth day of work
went for a morning meeting regarding the yog stock availability
after that walk around warehouse
BASF accepted the quotation and currently i have to wait for the invoice so i could send that back
but i emailed to vincent regarding the delivery details :D so no more worriesss
1pm went for lunchie
chicken porridge again (but it taste so nice )
came back at 140 pm
doing practically nothing at all till now
which is 5pm

send an email to jeffery to tell him that i would like to be more involved in yog kitchen in ntu

i tag everyone in the new album
except for unglam photos
i am the camera-MAN for almost all the photos
well taken
everyone have more than 30 over photos
their email will be flooded

i have a craving for lao po bing
lao po bing
lao po bing

siting down lying down
having a hot cup of milo

one hour left

I WANT THIS BED TOOOO


Ruijssenaars magnetic floating bed – $1.6 million
"Ruijssenaars reportedly worked on the technology for this expensive bed for six years in collaboration with Bakker Magnetics. Permanent opposing industrial-strength magnets allow the bed to float around 40cm off the floor and can hold 900kg. This visually pleasing technology could also be applied to other areas in home decor like coffee tables, sofas, and Japanese dining tables. How cool would it be to eat sushi and drink sake off a floating table?"

i would like to stay here for a night or so.
its so amazing



Jules Undersea Lodge, Key Largo: Florida
"This hotel is located under the sea and it’s a great place for a honeymoon. While staying in the hotel, we can also do scuba diving near the hotel, $ 375 / per night, $ 250 per couple for 3 hour day rate"

i slept so early yesterday
i feel more exhausted today
waiting for replies of email
tired like a fishball
i think i have aged
:(

just the start of work
jiayou

have work for eight days
today is such a busy day
do quotation
pack all purchase order together with invoices
check inventory availability
email jeffery and ah wong about it whether their warehouse have enugh stocks anot
send quotation again
have a meeting of one hour

i am very sleepy
i think i am going to sleep

got 2 company shirts

i can be so happy
and so sad
at the same time

positive be positive

a person 's sincerity cant be doubt

delicious chicken porridge

when about time to knock off
suddenly theres so many things to do
till abit ot
tml have a lot of things to do
quotation
checkin out of yog stock availability
blah blah

skype is not blocked in office
:D
can chat with all my friends

seventh day in work
totally nothing to do
morning have a short meet up with mrs ong
regarding our whole working experience in pico arts
its really a blessing in disguise that our previous company closed down
after that it seem that our supervisor Collin and her knew each other for a very long time
(as mrs ong have work in pico before too)
so LOL
we two escaped

the only work related thing i did today was
compare the blueprints again with the client requirements

the things i did not related to work
read up on the news
keep me updated on what is happening in the world
tag everyone in yinleng 's album
yes i am not deliberately flooding all the mails
i am really %#$%$ so i tag
keep me occupied
of course i avoid taggin ugly unglam photos
but yea i have nothing to do currently

i will post the photo of the nicest chicken porridge that can be found around my workplace in the night
it taste exactly like the one in primary school
:D
$2 for a generous big bowl of porridge

Internet connection is kinda lag and slow in office today

4 hours left
time passes slowly when we have nothing to do

celestine please stay positive

feeling upset
troubled
it might all be my fault
misery
may end up hurting other people
people that i care

:(

shaytards
as always

mrs ong will be visiting us tml

set up of Cards Asia 2010
from scratch :D