life has been pretty mundane ever since my boy have left for his long sailing trip.
3 more weeks and he will be back.

for the last one month , i have been thinking about can i really just let him go for such long period of time.
we hardly chat and even if we sms, its SGD 1.50 per silly reply.
that is awful and making everything worst
furthermore he is having another one during august to october. oh boy.

i am also currently having emotional thoughts lying on my bed looking out the window .
dark skies rainy weather
i feel so alone
maybe i am too dependent on him

no one can blame me since well we spend almost every weekends together for 5 years and so on
i do have my friends around me but its just different without him
i cant seem to enjoy anything
never really been out of my house for leisure purposes

only can just roooll in my bed.