life goin on..

clampin of my hand
homeworks!
exams.....

>.<

hapi ?

ah..
tml histroy test..
half readin..half surfing..
tink will fail bah.....

emo is to gain attention?

2 months liaoz le wor.
de serious look...
kinda cute......

a good morning,
or a helo would definitely makes my dae....



reali sorry.......!!!
to everyone.....

it really turned out that way...
haiz
it is starting to dun fit......

NOONE WILL EVER NOTICE

HAIZ

what if........
.....................................

haiz.......

i duno what m i feeling now......
like so mixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz
dun tink ... felt de same bah..........
tink everyone is enjoyin their life
not misin anione....


HAIZ


goin emo again -.-
wonder........








if he miss mi?

SOUP CAN CELESTIN IS FEELING EMO ...
weirddo!!

watch a mtv ...angela
i like how gothic it is..how dark it is.how emo it is.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D3FokbQWD_s&mode=related&search=

lyrics

不痛
一點點痛的感覺　加上一點我對你的思念
承諾不算太遙遠　遙遠只剩一瞬間
一步步靠近終點　再差一步我們踏上永遠
謊言讓人太陶醉　陶醉在你給的世界
＊我不想不願不去承認我的執著
　怕不知不覺無法忍住眼淚不流　
是愛傷害了彼此的自由
　你不看不聽不說為什麼要離開我　
我不哭不笑　只剩下沉默
　帶著我的驕傲高飛遠走 緊握過的雙手　
擁抱過的溫柔所有的對錯　跟著腳步你一併帶走
帶著我的驕傲高飛遠走


emo mushroom soup can celestine is off

how i wish ......
nothing will end.........


label :celestine
ingredient
100%-mushieroom soup
fresh picked and nice to eat....

hah..makin a fool out of myself....
stupid jokes-.-

HAIZ

i tink i m like a soup can
only soupcans have labels
crybaby? emo ?

i wish my label was CELESTINE

...........
..........................................
................................................
this is how i feel now
bored? tired? lonely? emo?
i dunoe..

...what m i to tis world?
a puppet?

THX AUDREY for teachin mi a lesson..
maye i really forget how 2 believe people.....
THX...
hmm
i goin 2 believe....
even in lies.....
tis is how de world work?

SORRY DAD!!!!!!!
my dad not 52 yrs old..
onli 50!!!!!
i go take extra 2 candles.....so sorii......>.<
MUACKS DAD

just came back from imm
...i bump into someone durin the journey there...
so sorry to that person..
...6.30 then got eat diner
even though its a resturant...
i dun tink shuld eat in a resturant.....
the atmosphere is so stiff..so noisy...
dun like it...rather eat in a fastfood shop..
more expensive olso......
o well but MY DADI SO HAPI....jiu can liaoz loh...
imm is like big maze!
cake coffeee.....so...coffee......too creamy >.<
....
left math homework...dunoe how 2 do lot ...
free period do..
tml on de way revise history...

...yao second month liaoz..
...but it is such a rocky path....
hopefuli can overcome ......

life goin on goin on..........

life is changing
will everyone change ?
will everything change?
holding on is the only thing that we can do..
hopefully we wont lose grip...

i rather people hate for being myself than to be loved for someone that is not mi

reali m tired le......
imposters
and peope hating mi..
o gosh.....
nothin much i can do?
just live my life
and hope they live their own life
.........
haiz..
canot emo..mi mus cheer up...
dunwan let anione wori for mi
those who hate mi ...hate mi

i still have friends that is there for mi!

Dr Suess said:
"Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not."

HAPPY B-DAE DADDDDYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thx for being a dad who look fierce on the outside but still care for mi inside!
thx for not givin mi stress
thx for being there for mi
thx for your nagging
thx for not leavin our family
thx for buyin nice stuff for mi..
thx for your sperm(dun tink wai wai!) if not i wont not even be in tis world
thx for EVERYHING
Lastly,thx for lettting mi be your daughter

if i m not wrong...my dadi age should b 52 le....
...MUACKS DADI

...
HAIZ

.....
2dae reali insane le.

everythin olso wrong..

wrong..wrong...

wad a wonderful dae
nice writing on my table....
ahh...so cute..
still draw on tables.......
waaaaaa
lolz......
you will certainly get de bes yr of ur life that u wont even want to leave!

:D :D :D :D :D

heheheee

tml will be a day to look forward to...


A PERSON WHO HAVE NO FRIENDS DON'T EVEN HAVE THE RIGHT TO HATE...

if this is de game u wan..
lets play :D
change or die :D



SORRY TO THOSE WHO WORRIED FOR ME....COMFORT MI......THX.
muacks!
and not forgetin those who helped mi...

aw....9 34 pm......
realise i have alot alot alot of stuff to finish
bio notes...
havent study for math test( i dun even noe theres one tml?)
ah..havent revise for core geography sec 3 chapter 1....

HAIZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!! o welll.......
burn midnite oil ......

u may ask y stil can come blog?
tats bcos i waitin for my dearest powerpoint to start up......



T.T
sad to noe tat future wont b so bright

brain to tink about lame future !!!!!...

life still goin on



wont people change?

2dae
have a small chat wif mrs hong
vp caught mi wear ankle socks..but nvr scold......

SORII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


haiz i now go watch hana kimi..n do sum hmw......

saw a nick
love need a strong friendship as a base..

haiz..maybe i expect alot of stuff......

>.< emo emo emo
haiz


eyes abit sore ...

hope tml..noone notice!
hope i wont show my emoness.!


CRYIN REALI SUX............
HATE CRYIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


why dun anione understand?

2dae..
went to watch movie..
b4 watchin mood alreadi veri down...
some notice
some nid others to tel

back home then i noe my dad scold mi is bcos he scare i come home too late then mum will scold mi again...touched ..even though he wanna b cool dadi..but I LOVE HIM MUACKS dadi..

haiz....

life is changin?
i lied to myself
i dunwanna let myself noe that u chose them over mi..
but y mus u sae it out.....i dunwanna noe..
i noe they are veri veri important.....but pls dun sae u choose them over mi.....
veri hurtin..... maybe i wastoo emotionally weak
please dun sae u belong to mi.......im not ur master...
i rather u treat mi transparent all de time...
then suddenly good then suddenly cold.....
i m not a toy....
i m cryin...AGAIN...
y mus i be the one crying...
it was never ur fault...
tis is de taste of rejection.....
maybe one dae..total freedom would b the bes..
freedom to let u do anithin u like .....

dunwanna let anione worri again ..includin you......

perhaps too much stress n chocolate make mi have pimple breakout..
sad?..

still left bio
hard......
dunoe how 2 do...
haiz..

WAD A BABI U ARE, CELESTINE!

lalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2dae is a veri veri sianz dae
cant go into hazel and shimin blog >.<
my com gettin old liaoz ..sick le
msn olso got problem...olso sick..
but i dun hav de $$ canot heal them...mus hold on ..MUACKS...


luckily tml can GO OUT LIAOZ..:D
melvin tml then u noe :Xc how i pinch u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


havent finish biology homework....stil left some chapters ....
but brain reali canot take it liaoz...mus refresh !!
why brain dun hav "refresh" button lei?or "COPY & PASTE" button..?

what to do ? >.<


haiz

aiyo...heard about the problems...so sori....my fault again....i this goes on....haiz...maybe tis mark the end?


what are u people doin ???????????

SIANZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ah...2dae..
dun nid 2 go out ..stayed at home..
now 202 noon..
jus watch a thailand CNY movie...my first love or sumtin...
VERY TOUCHIN..
actually cried..
reali mus treasure..make memories more pleasant...
dunoe wad to do.....
mos ppl shuld b outside bai nian...
later then contiue bahh...

back from the first dae of new yr outin..
tml i m free! lolz..
mornin..
went to melvin huse first..CCK!
he havent change into his new yr clothes -.-
n he watchin the japan meteor garden 2..so i watched with him..
japan f4 not handsome de >.< lolz..but they are CUTE !!kawaili!
after watch a few epi ...
steamboat for lunch .n sum side dishes which is cooked by melvin dad(uncle)..delicious wor!
then his brother wen bin /calvin 20years old le lei...so old liaoz worrr...!!!!
but still lolz....stil de same calvin..nvr change at all
time reai fly so fast..
after tat we went to a few uncle n aunties huse..which i do not noe them well ......>.<
then my famili n his seperated and went to my mum oldest sister huse in geylang ...which is my auntie lolz..at tat eat KOU ROU BAO...veri fatty but lolz...NICE to eat...one yr onli can eat one time..
sit at there chat..wif my cousin linda .er...10 yrs older than mi :x..she wear all red...then sae y i wear all black >.< lolz..
chat ..eat chat eat chat eat...until so fat>.<
sit taxi
then after tat went to my rich uncle huse...3 floor wor.....
but 10 ppl livin inside it .....
plasma tv :X...i wish future i have their huse
eat ah eat..
when we abt to leave...
my nephew so evil...5 yr old bah...he spray water in all of our shoes!! omg
but we nvr get angry instead we laugh....
then nid take cloth n wipe...then we left.....
went to hougang to sit bus back 2 boon lay...
remind mi of de "HOME"..."hello..can u giv mi a min..?"
lolz...
home sweet home at last
GAIN 2 kg :X omggg...canot eat liaoz


wonder hows everyone doin?
take care worr!!

11.07pm
not much do...
new yr.. comin......
hapi new year everyone!

bliss?

ah 735pm
..
time flew so fast..
yew kia primary 5 liaoz!
c him grow from a cute baby...till now a young man...
wa...but he mus eat more>.<>.< color="#000000"> and you
jia you everyone

..2dae quite sianx...
dun understand y...
jus now eatin lunch..
left onli my dad n i..
mum went work .bro went out(despite mum sae canot)
steamboat for the two of us...
my dadi veri good seh...so touched>.<
cos i was eatin my FAVE mushroom!
but quite hard wor..canot bite...then my dadi stand up n go take a
Scissor n help mi cut it into pieces ... ..then take some more mushie giv mi eat :D
even though the lunch is not as active
silence is golden :D

:p nw yr eve? :p

he never complain..y?
i was too selfish for alot of things..
i was too naive? not mature?..
...
he still can take my inmaturity ....
will he hate mi ?.?
..

weird life...
somethings are so unpredictable...
wont one wonder...y i ended up wif him ?
y didnt i notice him much earlier?

weird weird weird weird......


hopefuli i m not weirdo to anione
er..jus dun tok to mi if i m angry
tat time i m reali a weirdo ....

those that should take care n jia yo..MUS HOLD ON !!

DO NOT want to see ani of my friends cry again...!!

Akira & Mizuki

LALA~~~
Goin Crazy
Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again
I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight
[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything
[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby
Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you its been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady I'll be around waiting for you
I'll put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true and no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)
[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything
[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby
I'm going crazyI need to be your ladyI've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you baby
Ohhh, ohhh....Crazy... lady..... lately.... Ohhh ohhh..... Ohh ohhh ohhhhhh Baby...

Life is still goin on...
JIA YOU to everyone...
hope everything will be alrite...

HAPI B-dae SERENE..wish u have what you want :D

hana kimi >.<
♥
hope everything sad will b gone..

love?

why wont he complain despite how unreasonable i am?

I WAS TOO SELFISH!

ytd
fell down 3 time...
3rd time is i onself stupid go fall de...
my bro ah..haiz..
life still mus go out.....
2dae..new yr celebration..
the best is the officers frm the Army...
they have good voice...n they are handsome because they hav the mature "feel"..
...
o well........forget it................

VALENTINE DAE...a dae to spend wif friends and loved one
almos everyone eat the chocs...n some even ask for second n third helping..
biology exams abit hard..but hopefuli can pas?
but overall is stil a nice dae..
thx...
new famili member..anithing 2 >.< lolz...
thx thx :D
hope you like my presie..even though...T.T sori...
...u surely veri late then can reach home...sori sori...
hp olso no battery...sori sori...


i hate xiao qiang T.T

MUACKS!HUGIES! ..
hapi valentine everyone :D

human beings will jus hold on to some things when they noe its goin to be lost...or gone...
before that...they would only take that for granted..HUMAN BEINGS always take things for granted...
once they know they going to lose stuff they used to have..
they try hard to hold it..using excuses...using so call "sweet" talk..
if they suceed..they will count themselves lucky..and slowly the process of caring stop...the cycle start all over again..
if they fail..they will use illusions or lie to themselves..."I have tried..its just that it do not wan to stay..so i let it go..from more pain."
crying will be all that they will do..everyone would hate the thing or stuff that had want to leave..
they would then forget....
no one knows that...its human beings that first mistreated it...
the thing or stuff...have already use up all its power and soul to lie to themselves..thinking that human beings still love them...
the lies....turned painful when they realise that....love have end..or love never even started ...
some still willing to believe...but....its all too late...
letting go something you do not have in the begining would be more painful...
ending would b so different from what they think in the begining...
the thing or stuff will have to live with the pain...
what about typical human beings?
...human beings would therefore give themselves a chance.."Haiz...she or he have leave mi..what am i going to do.....maybe i need another relationship to heal my wounds?"
happily...they went to find one...get one....love one...hurt one...
but its a neverending cycle....sadly everything will leave...
humans never will learn their lesson...being alone is their punishment..
theres no such excuses as "friends do not want me".."family giv up on mi"..
being sad....is just to seek attention..yea...i m an attention seeker...wad ever...

choices...
human beings have alot of choices..
what they want?
who they want?
sometime..theres is no choice...wad u left is ...yourself....
sadness?
ONE MILLION PEOPLE OUT INTHE WORLD is olso feeling the same way like you do....
what are you trying to do?
suicide?
if one is sad then use death..
its so unfair to death...
love everything!


i am so weird..i actually wrote something like tat to scold myself...
little vocabulary...
but o well..writing can relieve some pain....

Within Temptation
Memories
Whisper* Memories, memories, memories
In this world you tried
Not leaving me alone behind
There's no other way
I'll pray to the gods: let him stay
The memories ease the pain inside
Now I know why
REF:
All of my memories
Keep you near
It's all about us
Imagine you'd be here
All of my memories
Keep you near
The silent whispers
The silent tears
Made me promise
I'd try To find my way back in this life
I hope there is a way
To give me a sign you're okay
Reminds me again
It's worth it all
So I can go home
REF
Together in all these memories I see your smile
All the memories I hold dear
Darling you know I love you till the end of time
REF


tis song match my mood

RAININ dae...
ah...saddnesss...
alone at home..nothin 2 do...
haiz..

haiz..slowly do hmw bah..

SORRY to let ALOT of people worry le...
sorry...
i myself also not sure what am i doin...
recess jiu went to library n hide...cool down abit...
reali ok.
thx for de comfort
thx for de care
thx for de cup...

i havent die yet!

wed=biology ca1..
haiz..

tink for alot alot of hours..
..canot giv up...
despite...alot alot of things
MUS JIA YOU
i finally understand my feelings.....!
o well....mood turn hao abit...




KPO me
saw zeng yee de nick...
something big hapen..?
...then....saw edmund blog..
o...
oic....
wa...
kinda..shockin....
who noes this will hapen?
...gone le..jiu will hate each other mahh?
another stori to show that...love is so unpredictable......
but..its too late le....
HAVE LE JIU MUS TREASURE .........
gone le..then regret...no use .....
JIA YOU 2 DE TWO SIDES...


wad if every relationship ends like tis?..
..
de best is to dun end.....but canot b forever dun end de ah...
unless got miracles..n blessings from everyone...
.........

i dunoe what m i feeling now..
perhaps mornin blues?
should be happi to receive that sms..but..i dunoe...
feelin abit lost......
.....will tat be good for him?

life changes as it goes through alot of stuffs...good ones..n de bad ones
eveyone changes...even if they sae they nvr...
in their hearts they noe de real answer..
i have change...past doesnt matter...PRESENT is what i cherish..
regrets are always too late..sometimes even regrets are wrong ...
some things was wrong before it even started..
wat hurts most is being too close..
promises sometime prove to be ineffective..
what matter most is your heart...your feelings
comparison between stuff is okay..but comparison between living objects just
prove to be very hurtful...
once i noe de truth.....i m goin 2 change de truth...
i would onli be in de background of everyone 's life...
i was never anithin special ...i will never ever b special..
i m myself..not a doll for anyone to control..
i dunwanna hurt myself again...
how can you ever possible hold something that badly wants to leave?..
slowly.....

2dae..was force to wear skirt..
then onli i wear skirt-.-

i wear until veri er xin..veri ugly...
2dae made went to make tat ting..but nvr do much...
cos i onli eat..greedy mi ... i eat so much cos nice 2 eat mah..
hao le..jiu go bugis...
too bad serene canot join us............
veri happi 2 c u wear tat shirt..even though its oversized.

shop ah shop ah shop...then one by one gone...
8 plus jiu g c my mum workin environment..not bad..
pregnant lady de clothes olso veri nice lei...one dae i will buy for those who is pregnant..
after tat ...some bad things hapenn=.=
well...now at home...
tired but dunwan sleep...
do sum hmw ..watch sum shows then sleep...

YEAH!
i survived week 6!!
bad things happen
good things clear de stains of bad things..
haiz...hope
everyone can survive

...
all start well...stay well

>.< sorii
2dae abit too high.


"o" level result..
100% pass for pure biology n 95% pass for core geo..
cool....

left biology hmw...

life~life~

haiz..10 40 pm liaoz..still havent sleep...mood not veri good
MY BRO so bad........
T.T
angry angry.....sosososososooo angry...
punch de sakae sushi FROG...
head so big...*squeeze de frog head*
body so small ....
T.T
haiz..so ke lian...
go n sleep le..
everyone is sleepin liaoz...T.T

UPS n downs!
ups downs ups downs up downnss
UPPP
DOWNN
those around mi will noe...


those who is sick mus take care!
....
meteor garden...
aiyo..some parts rewatch ...still will get de same touchin n mushy feeling>.<
...
so sweet...
...

rewatchin meteor garden...
hook up?

life...ups downs
changes.
if life can b as simple...

DI BU QI
tink too much...
haiz...

o well....
gone jiu gone le....

FUCK

listenin to Within Temptation
gothic....
emo.......


i dunwanna own anione ani favours ani more...
those that i own i will repay my debts..
still m a weakling...but...hoepfuli ...i will be strong overtime...

thx to those who had BEEN by my side...
support mi..
care for mi...

to those who did not..
have no comment..

i figure out...that mayb in the mornin we quarrel......
my mum also cried..
...well....perhaps i cant put down my pride and properly sae a sori...
...now i dunoe how 2 face her...

guilt?

!!!

thanks for those who dun blame mi...xiexie...


some things makes you wanna live in this world...therefore....i shall cancel out one of my wish items....live for myself....one person could not possibly live for themselves....cos....u live to see ur love ones...to live for ur dreams.....

I CANT SAE I WAS NEVER WRONG BEFORE...
maybe i was always wrong...

life's like that?


....today..spend mornin watchin shows...
realise that i never brin my math file home...how to read....
haiz...
volleyball match tml..jia you main 6!!!

SORI SORI SORI...

thanks shang jie for letiin mi use his huse as a shelter
thanks thanks to those who care for mi...
sori sori..i ps mos of u....
sori....dui bu qi....

.....................
y.......
push my limits.......

........reali......................................wan 2 cry....
............fk.....

haiz
ben lai tml hapi hapi de..
now things turn out this way..

MOODY SAD ANGRY
!.!

error code
bX-vjhbsj

NO MOOD do physics test paper...so surely will fail :D
angry angry angry angry
tml mus brin toys to vent my anger


MRS HONG so bad T.T
evil !!
every lesson mus call mi ...tink its her habit already


both run until so fast ah......




>.< SO PAISEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




parliment huse HERE I COME